Last night I was out on the patio looking at the stars when an airplane flew by , it was flying low and going slow when all of a sudden it was like I was in a different time. Jack was there he was 3 or 4 years old I think and I was crouching down next to him. He looked like his usual quirky self still -with the long mane of silky reddish blond hair and the wide smile spread over his face. It was still the same time around 11 pm. Who knows why we were out there or why he wasn't tucked away in bed but I was saying to him "look at the airplane Jack, see all the flashing lights, there are people inside that plane.Wave at it Jack. Wave at all the people. He was mystified by the plane and when I started waving at it he followed suit using both his hands, shaking them wildly and jumping up and down and laughing. Then just like that in milliseconds it was just me again staring up at the plane and the stars. It felt so real and then I cried. I will always picture you by my side Jack and hopefully my imagination will allow me to see you grow up, I love you MR.
Mummy and Jack forever
Mummy and Jack forever
4 comments:
Isn't it crazy how you can forget even if it's just for a second. Then when you realize it was just a dream/daydream your world comes crashing down again. Maybe he sent you that day dream to let you know he's right next to you always? As far as the time traveler I spoke of in my blog if I find one I will send him your way next!
I just want to let you know that your sweet Jack has touched another heart. I cannot begin to comprehend your grief, but I greatly admire women like you and some of my other friends that have survived the loss of a precious child and still manage to put one foot in front of the other, in spite of the immense pain. I was touched by this article that I read on another blog that I thought you might appreciate as well - http://www.reviewjournal.com/lvrj_home/2006/Feb-26-Sun-2006/living/5987837.html
Hang in there and know that Jack is still touching hearts.
thanks Merilee the article is so true, we dont want to let go of the grief and we never will but hopefully with time learn how to manage it.
What a beautiful moment that you shared with Jack. Every moment that I can have with Isabella, even if it is only in my mind is never fogotten. I wish that we can stay in those moments and never have to come back to reality. I hope that you and Jack can share many more moments like that.
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